Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Dream Lover

The last couple of months have been kind of a whirlwind in my dating life: I've started and stopped a dating situation with a man I met online (totally long story for another post), gone head-over-heels for a guy I met at a wedding (yet another story for a future post), entertained a "temporary situation", fought off the advances of a total Casanova, and had random bar encounters that make me question the dating scene. But, the one that's got me thinking isn't any of these. Instead, it's the past, and an old high school flame , Vincent, that I didn't see coming two months ago. He's resurfaced rather quickly, and that has tripped me out a lot.

When I first met him, I was convinced that we could never be an item. I was bookish and a goody-goody. He was smooth, confident and well-liked -- and much more experienced, especially when it came to dating.

Somewhere along the way, we became friends that happened to like each other. We talked all the time, and even shared a few stolen glances, and a great kiss... But it was never meant back then. (Then again, it's all romanticized at the age of 15.)

Now, Vincent's back in the picture, and we talk all the time. I've almost come to depend on having that everyday interaction with him, and to be honest, we vibe just as well as we did before. No explaining why I'm able to say absolutely anything to him. But the point is, I can. Even hundreds of miles apart, we just... Click.

I have to admit, I'm a little thrown by some of the recent changes in his life: a break-up with a fiancee, a child... Can a man who has all this on his plate feel that strongly about another woman so soon afterward? Maybe, if you consider our history. But still not 100% sure if a man can surrender his feelings that fast. I like to think so. But not sure.

To be honest, there are a million reasons why this situation may not seem like the smartest move. What it boils down to: Is he into me, or the idea of me? I mean, do we see what we want to?

Whatever the case, I just need to figure it out soon... Before I fall in just a little too deep.

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